i do nothing
we stare into our computer screens
and pretend we don’t hear the muffled screams
i want to love you like you seem to love me
i want to love you
like you seem to love me
with brutal tenderness
but I love you like I love me
I put up with you quietly
I stay still and wish for more
silence is my currency
I want to love me a new way
winter sniffles
awe shit the winter sniffles
gone for now is the summer of wiffle ball bats
and sweaty sun soaked hats
replaced with something biting and harsh
no longer the mosqito in the marsh
once soft and warm
the ground is cold and hard
it was easy when the sun was out
heating me
when you were there breathing life into me
a reminder that i am matter
that i matter
now my shoes crash through frozen puddles
in the icey breeze
my heart tightens
i am not ready to be the sun
i am not ready
hold me
hold me in your arms and play with me again
please
put me at ease
remind me what its like to be the sun
and i will be your sun
i promise i will
but
do i have to be the sun?
does someone have to be mine?
if you leave me, will i burn up?
if i leave you, will you will freeze?